The Meaning

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” – Psalm 139:14

One thing I have always struggled with is self-confidence. Growing up, I never had a boyfriend, in fact, I was never even asked out by a guy. It never really bothered me until high school, when I started to believe that something was wrong with me. I’ve never really been skinny and in middle school I had somewhat of a “heavy” phase and I thought I could never move past it. I made some changes in high school and got down to a “normal” weight, but I still never felt pretty enough. I’ve been friends with some gorgeous girls and my self-esteem began wearing down.

Now that I am in college, the comparison game is stronger than ever. Everyone is trying to make their mark and find a place to fit in. My looks became quite important  to me as I joined dating apps and believed I needed to make myself look good for prospective dates. Now that I have a loving, awesome boyfriend, I realize that I don’t need to push myself to unattainable physical goals.

But the biggest truth of all is that I have a loving, all-powerful, and all-knowing God who has always been there and always will be. He accepts me no matter what I look like and He created me specifically as I am to fulfill a purpose that only I can. I think this verse in Psalms is a wonderful reminder of God’s love and devotion and the reassurance that He hand-crafted us and knew our qualities and our looks before we were born. He is in full control and He loves me just the same, no matter how I look.